tomorrow is a gift

1.dont like to smile
okay, here my explaination. i think people dont reckon me, i hate everybody he/she,
in my casual life i just ended hooked up alone like a virgin does. peoples always
irritates me, which  is can lead to my terrible rage. i would do some bizarre things
to those who i hate WAY SO MUCH. they treat me like their optional, that's why.
people dont actually thinks that i  existed, yeah, i used to sits alone not talking
to people. i know, a lot of my haters out there. but i dont care what you gonna do
to me. in my thoughts, hating me is just useless, hating me doesnt use my energy either
my money?

since i was small, i isolate myself from others since i was on Ist standard till now.
i was humialiated by others coz of my naive.(dont wanna tell you that PART!) yeah,
i was naive kid. people used to call me "CeNsOrEd". i admit, i slow at doing something
that i dont know how to do. YEAH! but im not the only one though HAHA! yeah that's why..
 a)i hate everybody
 b)people dont thinks me that im exist
 c)people dont cares bout me
 d)im treated like an option
 e)im humialiated
 f)people tend to ignore me
 g)plus, my  front teeth are big.. way SO BIG! im hiding it!
 h)malay,dark and ugly version of SASUKE? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA! LOL!

2.always show to public of emotion
this is my MOST BADASS imperfection, that i thought i almost hide it. i never show my inner
being to fucking public back then. haha! im not crazy as hell- inside.. i dont know, just my
split personality. flash of the memories when i dying to hide my feelings when i in form 3.
but in that year, for your information i beaten a boy because of my jealousy. GEEZ! what ive
did to him. HAHA! that's an old story, forget it :p i used to fake EVERYTHING. i keep the
pain with myself, became an other person as a output which is kinda exhausting. but some human
already know who the hell i am. but, eventually i cant stand of it anymore and i spread my anger. it's
easy concept.. duuhh... vesuvius itself cant hold it's lava after... ermm.. thousand year maybe?
.. and how could i? *wondering*

3)control freak
simple answer.. i am elder brother. so, im kinda like to command people but, cant stand when
people give an order like im their's slave. i hate when someone DISOBEY me, ignores my favor .
that's all.

4)dont carefree like serioso :D
i said already, ive multiple/split PERSONALITY in a heart. sometime i being that.. this... and
whatever it is as long as im breathing.

5)im annoying
this last point is the most ancient point that needed to mention. honestly, this point just
show itself when im dealing with stupidity of a person. been an asshole throughout the
years with my ANNOYING. that's why i ISOLATE MYSELF! i know people would show their
stupidity and im gonna avoid it somehow. people would say anything that could make my anger
spread out, and i did some step in order not to fucked situation up by sitting alone.
that method that i used to be. method that requires no feelings to take care of, nobody will
hate me, nobody will critised me.

BYE...