the end.

ok.. we ended.

green-eyed means love

ok.. i admit that im jealous. he got the same as me. he got your times. you can laugh with him.
joking with him. talks to each other for a long period. what's the use of my title then? BF?
not money... not things that u give to me... not all presents that i really wanted. but i want ur
attention, love, cares, peramah, time and manja2 with me... those your attitude towards me. i miss it
so badly.

im really impersonating MALIK in real. he lack of attentions, no one cares for him, no one loves him,
no one were gonna talk to him, no one can spares time for him. !NEVER!. no wonder i can brought his
character so well.. i felt that feelings either MALIK. he's gone raged, knocking out his lads. his
classmate step away from him and shouted "AAARHHH". poor Chin, a kind hearted chinese boy that
who had beaten up by Malik prowess. MALIK'S tough body outmatched chin-a thin anorexic boy, but after
two or three minutes he dodged Malik's punch. he grabs one of malik's arm and threwn me away.
haha

how could i be the special one if i were treated just as the same you treated him. now, my tears have
dried. which is a good news then. i dont cry like a girl. HAHA! just..

sayang.. i dont ask things that so hard to be given by you. i want you.

show me that im really matters to you.

show me that "more than anything"

show me that you are truly cares for me.

show me that you loyal with me.

show me that im your 1st priority.

show me that you truly LOVE me.

tomorrow is a gift

1.dont like to smile
okay, here my explaination. i think people dont reckon me, i hate everybody he/she,
in my casual life i just ended hooked up alone like a virgin does. peoples always
irritates me, which  is can lead to my terrible rage. i would do some bizarre things
to those who i hate WAY SO MUCH. they treat me like their optional, that's why.
people dont actually thinks that i  existed, yeah, i used to sits alone not talking
to people. i know, a lot of my haters out there. but i dont care what you gonna do
to me. in my thoughts, hating me is just useless, hating me doesnt use my energy either
my money?

since i was small, i isolate myself from others since i was on Ist standard till now.
i was humialiated by others coz of my naive.(dont wanna tell you that PART!) yeah,
i was naive kid. people used to call me "CeNsOrEd". i admit, i slow at doing something
that i dont know how to do. YEAH! but im not the only one though HAHA! yeah that's why..
 a)i hate everybody
 b)people dont thinks me that im exist
 c)people dont cares bout me
 d)im treated like an option
 e)im humialiated
 f)people tend to ignore me
 g)plus, my  front teeth are big.. way SO BIG! im hiding it!
 h)malay,dark and ugly version of SASUKE? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA! LOL!

2.always show to public of emotion
this is my MOST BADASS imperfection, that i thought i almost hide it. i never show my inner
being to fucking public back then. haha! im not crazy as hell- inside.. i dont know, just my
split personality. flash of the memories when i dying to hide my feelings when i in form 3.
but in that year, for your information i beaten a boy because of my jealousy. GEEZ! what ive
did to him. HAHA! that's an old story, forget it :p i used to fake EVERYTHING. i keep the
pain with myself, became an other person as a output which is kinda exhausting. but some human
already know who the hell i am. but, eventually i cant stand of it anymore and i spread my anger. it's
easy concept.. duuhh... vesuvius itself cant hold it's lava after... ermm.. thousand year maybe?
.. and how could i? *wondering*

3)control freak
simple answer.. i am elder brother. so, im kinda like to command people but, cant stand when
people give an order like im their's slave. i hate when someone DISOBEY me, ignores my favor .
that's all.

4)dont carefree like serioso :D
i said already, ive multiple/split PERSONALITY in a heart. sometime i being that.. this... and
whatever it is as long as im breathing.

5)im annoying
this last point is the most ancient point that needed to mention. honestly, this point just
show itself when im dealing with stupidity of a person. been an asshole throughout the
years with my ANNOYING. that's why i ISOLATE MYSELF! i know people would show their
stupidity and im gonna avoid it somehow. people would say anything that could make my anger
spread out, and i did some step in order not to fucked situation up by sitting alone.
that method that i used to be. method that requires no feelings to take care of, nobody will
hate me, nobody will critised me.

BYE...

today in history

jeez, i am the who always sit in silent. But dont ever think of my silence signifying ignorance.

Gosh! for the god sake will ever someone can emerge out of this fucking whole wide world

to know who i am? he/she doesnt count just SOMEONE! FUCKING SOMEONE!

im the one who always talk. Mmm.. literally to myself lah. why? bcuz talking with creatures, i mean

living creatures whose got brain in their head sometimes irritate. hey! im the one who only talk

whenever asked, got what i mean? yeah! been 5 years sitting alone in front row with all friends

left me behind.Only God knows how was the feeling.  i feel stupid when whoever i share something and they was like "OHHH.." and i hear no more bout their enthusiasm on my shares. that's why im just talking if i

asked. GOT THAT?! dont wanna being idiot again.

  NEVAH!

here the facts bout me, first of all i am who i am. im the weird boy! or guy or whatever it is

i dont care. im not the one who similar to other guys of this planet. I dont do like any other

guys do. like, i dont always do same things all over again and again. NO! that wasn't me. Im

the one who always trying to break out the daily routine. get hooked up with my lads n do some

shits togerther and we do other things top get out of boredom. oh! 1 thing, im the person who

sometimes dont talks nice things oftenly. i may cursing all the times, say something that you

dont expect me to say, in other hand

      IM A RUDE BOY.

quite impressing that im babbling bout myself. HAH! but whatever this is just a geek-guide to

know who is kandar way so deeply-even deeper if you observe me well and acting like me and ask me.

enough said, i am observant type of person. kinda like a stalker but not a stalker

though. u may surprised that i know who you are but you dont me well. it's your rensponsibility

to ask and do whatever it takes if you "LIKE" me and keen to get know me in close. seriously i dont mind

whatever u question that will be asked. your question, i will be answered with open-hearted and

i will try to answer as much as i can. so dont worry.  :D

im stingy not the generous one. i will pour out some money if i like you lah or i will ignore you

whenever u need some money, from me if i just consider u as my contacts. if you are my friend i will ask you money, even if it is a ringgit, still it's God blessings ahah! :Dhow cruel i am right? AHAH! but whatever, so much love for those who lends me their hand to help me out of problems not to mention they also lend me a lot of money too. hehe! way so much thanks dudes!

p/s : perhaps today i can watch the immortals! in HD! and im sleepy.